♡ somebody enough to....

Love somebody enough to hold back on those words, so that, you mean what you say when you say it.

Don’t use it carelessly, don’t use it loosely…

When you just want to bed a girl, say you lust her, don’t say you love ♡ her.

When you just wanna get f***ed, say it, don’t lead him on.

If something is for a span of time, state it.

Those 3 words hold a time life commitment, foundation of somebody’s dreams.

No, you need-not be with that person forever, but, you have this obligation of being there for that person whenever, where-so-ever.

 So, when you are not sure of it DON’T say it.

Say it, when you don’t have that asterisk (*) of conditions applied to your ♥ .

Say it, when you are capable enough of carrying the RESPONSIBILITY that comes with it.

Say it, when you can trust them enough to give them wings.

Say it, if you can be their strength, not weakness.

Say it, when they are your WANT, not just your NEED.

Say it, when you can handle them at their worst.

Say it, as and when you MEAN it. As and when you feel it, as and when you don’t have second thoughts about it.

Shower them with love so pure that their ego vanishes in air.

Last and not the least, Love somebody enough to let go and still be their very own personalized guardian angel…..

PS: There is tons of difference between “I love you ” and “love you”. :)

On a voyage called Life…

She tries to keep away from the superfluous elements.
Can one term them superfluous?
It’s said Every persona and instances in life are designed to teach you a lesson..
Never regret what you did, Never cry over what’s gone
for it’s not gonna change
update you journal of life,
Learn what you were en routed to, cherish the process, memories and move on. . .

She wants to break free,
Break free . . .
From bonds of blood relations,
To the bonds formed out of physical urges.
From bonds that leech on her,
To the bonds that turn her into what she isn’t.
From the bonds that drag her to where she doesn’t wanna be,
To the one’s that drive her to do what she won’t do in her conscious self.

All she wants is wing. . .


Waiting from the new life to embrace her.
But is this journey towards self-improvement?
Towards a new self?
Nope, it’s about self-discovery.
In order to find one’s best. . .
One has to walk the path of inner discovery rather than outer change.
We are perfect at our core, it’s about shedding the outer layers to get to the prefect self.Yes! She is perfect. She will get to “her-self”.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

What you want to be in your future?

What do you want to be when you grow up?

Well I always had different answers at each point of life and every time I did try to implement those dreams/infatuations/reality with all my passion.

It ranged from teacher(implementation: teaching my dolls ), Surgeon( the effect lasted till I was watching some serial called Sanjivani ) , well surgeon was the only thing that came to my mind after scoring good marks in 10th but for that I was suppose to take biology as one of my subjects. Biology was definitely not the problem but Marathi/Hindi as one of the compulsory language which ended up with biology was something i didn’t approve of much at that moment, after discussing with friends which subjects to take we scrolled it down on PCM(Physics, Chemistry and Mathematics), English, Computer Science. Now only reason for turning to pursing a deg in Computer Science was my HSC (12th ) computer science marks 180/200. Just finished with my final year Bachelor’s exam, vacations are on. According to the flow of things, am suppose to purse my master’s in IT/computer Science. And here am thinking about Indian Govt. Spy/Agent/War Zone Journalism/ RAW and stuff . :D

Action –movie effect???

Another infatuation/dream world kind of thing???

Too much of Nacy Drew/Harry Boy’s in teens???

That’s what you would ask me …Na it isn’t !!!

The extend to which I am taking this thing seriously is :

--->Started learning Kashmiri language, surfing about Pashto (Didn’t encounter any Afgani yet so its limited to textual stuff). :D

--->Watching Maulana Masood Azhar (Chief of JeM) videos.

Maulana Masood Azhar(Chief of JeM): One of my friend said any one who hears to him turns jehadi , don’t know about turning jehadi but I can guarantee you won’t be able to sleep, not coz of the content he is talking on (coz I found it illogical on second thought) but coz he chillav’s(shouts) like some weirdo),peace out man we know everything is in danger including people’s sleep when you open your mouth!!!

--->Surfing for hours about RAW/Indian Govt Agents/Spies(one fishy aspects about RAW is it maintains such a amazing low profile, there are barely any articles on it)(tried searching all possible combination of words/sentences did encounter a lot but nothing enough to find a way directly into it expect for IPS, Army and yea those RAW agents if by default they find you enough useful might contact you by themselves….now how on earth they going to contact this girl who they don’t know even exist!!!)

http://www.orkut.co.in/Main#Community.aspx?cmm=10078042 this is one community that makes sense. At least it gives you some hopes :D. Well my Aunty is like nice dream but just 20% practical…well here I tried telling her its 40% practical. Coz you neva know where life’s gonna take you!;) well nahi toa (or else ) MCA/MSc IT and one fat salary , marry to some creature of mom dad’s choice and stay like some susantrukt-sabya bahu(good daughter-in-law)…what the heck!! I can’t image myself there. Huh!

--->Poking my nose into cyber law/hacking/ some paki chat rooms not direct field officer then at least through tech department(ETS) some way in…hehe crazyness simplified!

The funny thing is if you click on the wikipedia link for this, it gives an article of barely 4 lines. I guess the ETS guys believe its better that the thieves do not know where the police is.

Well Pakistani Chat Rooms on various messengers are one interesting part in this virtual webbed world, you might encounter some Talibani creature …well I enjoy arguing with these creatures.

Sectarian Conflicts in Pakistan are reflected in their chat rooms too.

Yea not to mention ever try saying something like “Your pak is anywayz splitting into pieces, try to join in that first rather than indulging in destroying the fabric of your neighbor.” There is like 90% possibility of someone shouting from there “Inshallah Balochistan aazad jarrur hoga.””Balochistan zindabad” ;)

.--->Downloading some AK-47 named e-books just with the curiosity of seeing how it functions. Pakistan Press Alerts/ Media is one more art of friction. You might have come across that video on you tube which had one of the MLA’s of Pakistan saying that WTC attack was planned and executed by US itself on one of its national channel.lol

I don’t know what whether my dream rather passion of working for my country will come true or not, but this weirdness of me talking to jehadi attitude people and surfing through dozens of sites on terrorist/ terrorism/ Pakistan/ Afghanistan might turn me into one jEhAdI !!! lol

Pls note: Here the word “jehad” is in context with what Pakistani militants+ all the anti-humanity creatures define jehad as.